Thursday, July 7, 2011

Can't get much more eloquent than this...

Dear Loved Ones,

I hope this finds you all well and settling into the lazy days of summer. This is such a wonderful time when life feels expansive and we stretch beyond our cozy in door routines to embrace new travels and adventures. Somehow our lives feel lighter and more on the cusp of such a wide array of possibility. Quite exciting time. ~smile~ I am taking this time to pass along some tough news and am going to trust that you all will find a way to accept and support each other. After meeting with Kaplan yesterday, it is looking very likely that the odds of coming out of this health challenge on the other side is relatively slim. After profound discussions with my family, we are committed to keeping open minds while still acknowledging odds of a lengthy survival are not good. As a result, our focus will likely will shift to the importance of quality of life. My men and I are all on the same page on this one. We don't know what kind of timing we are talking about. I continue to feel good and strong while still acknowledging subtle little changes that indicate my condition continues to progress.
Today, I start a low dose of chemo. Expectations regarding efficacy are low but can buy some time. It would be wonderful to share another holiday with you all and just move through a full year appreciative of every moment and opportunity to express my love and gratitude to you all for supporting me in building a life well lived. Thank you so so much. As we move forward, it is my intention to quiet my schedule down a little in order to find time to write in the journals I started for the kids years ago, to spend meaningful moments with my close friends and family, sit in wonder and appreciation at our great good fortune, and savor all the meaningfulness that is possible. I have visions of this being a profound and meaningful, nourishing and positive time. I hope it is not defined as primarily sad but glorious and reflective of a life well lived. ~smile~with sparkles, and colours and hearty laughter accompanied with big hugs where that squeeze is hearty and cannot be confused with a polite brush but wussy brush agains the cheek. Really squeeze. I'm giving you permission.
So, that's that. It is my intention to keep my appointments that are already on the calendar yet ease back after that. I am not going pack my days and social calendar as I have in the past but know that I carry each of you with gratitude in my heart and truly appreciate and love what each of you has contributed to my family's journey. I will try to keep in touch via email but will likely keep the visits down. The love meter stays high, though. ~smile~
Thank you, thank you, thank you all. One woman could not ask for more wonderful and live sustaining friends and family. You've helped make this a journey I wouldn't trade for the world. ~smile~
So much love to you all,

With so much love,

1 comment:

  1. You are such a strong woman.You are truelt an inspiration. I was just diagnosed with Stage 2b Melanoma this year. I will keep you in my prayers.